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February 12, 2012

because help is a wonderful thing

Wow. All I can say is what a difference a week makes! I’m suddenly feeling like I’m getting my chaos-fighting mojo back and I. Love. It!

I totally get that this is a process and I won’t just bounce back from what I can only describe as the closest I have ever come to a nervous breakdown. I have had only one session with a fantastic and amazing therapist, who recommended I see her at least twice a week (truth hurts! lol).

Something perhaps more critical than the professional help piece has happened…I forced myself to be honest with my husband and asked for help! I like being super mom. I want my husband (and everyone else) to see me thriving. Unfortunately, in order to keep pushing through in the day-to-day mom and wife stuff, I didn’t do a great job addressing some kinda big emotional stuff. So I’m addressing it now. I’m lucky to have a very understanding and supportive husband. I’m glad he encouraged me to get a babysitter once a week (even though I have been very focused on saving money), reminding me that our number one goal right now is to have healthy and happy kids…and if Mommy isn’t
healthy and happy, neither are they.

Hopefully, I will be back to some semi-regular posting about regular minimalist paleo mommying things. I will also share with you any tips or insights I am learning about combatting depression and overwhelmed mommyhood.

Up next in the queue: The most fantastic way to make my hubby’s lunches for work OAMC style! Look for it this week!

Thanks for sticking with me and for the words of support and encouragement!

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February 6, 2012

Untitled Mess

I have a very long post in which I explain why I am a chaotic mess right now. That post, however, may be better kept as my own private diary considering the kind of crazy I have been over the last month or so. Suffice it to say that in my most recent battles versus chaos, my opponent has won almost every time.

I’m here to say that despite some of the lists/schedules/plans I have put in place to keep me from losing my mind, my mind has been (effectively) lost. Perhaps it was the disgusting food choices over the holidays coupled with exhaustion from travel and my hair suddenly turning way more gray than it should be at barely thirty years old. Perhaps it was realizing it is a new year and I have spent the last few trying to keep my head above water and I. Just. Couldn’t. Tread. Alone. Anymore. Lemme define alone for anyone wondering, cause yes, I am married and my hubby has been treading as well. MomvsChaos definition of alone: living in a state where you have no family with a ton of small kids at ages that mostly prevent you from attending any mommy and me type functions because one is too old or one is too young. Having a husband working ALL the time probably trying to get over his own issues from a couple of really tough years. No babysitters. No date nights. No vacations. Period.

It’s February. I owe a blog update on my Paleo on a Budget progress for January, but it may take a little while to get back into the grove. In other news, we’ve hired a little bit of help. One day a week, for a handful of precious hours, the littles go to a babysitter. This started last week, and I filled those hours with OAMC and other mommying tasks. It felt good to try to get ahead. Tomorrow when they’re at the sitter’s, I’m going to talk to a professional before this beast gets out of control. And then I will do mommying things until they come home so I can at least feel slightly less chaotic on the outside.

So now, internets, you know. Even this Mom vs. Chaos doesn’t win every battle. But I’m planning to get my groove back…stat.

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