It’s been a long while since I’ve been in the blogging mood. I tried to post a bit last month, and if you read those posts you would know I’ve been working through some personal *ish.
Truth is, I’m pretty sure it was only going to be a matter of time before some tough blows added up and I would need some professional help. The thing I was wondering is why now? Why eighteen months after my preemie was born and my daughter moved in with her Father? Why almost two years into gainful employment after a painful stretch of unemployment?
I’ve decided three things made my crazy start when it did:
1. Making the switch to Paleo in January 2011 saved me from my own sort of emotional crazy only temporarily until I slacked off (in addition to healing some real physical health stuff).
2. Eating lower quality food when I started to reevaluate our budget (not grassfed, etc) made me care less about what I was eating (and made it less palatable in some ways).
3. Getting lax on eating Paleo over the Holidays because I cared less about the quality of my food (see #2) and because I felt like the weirdo that couldn’t “relax” and “live a little!” at family functions resulted in hormonal imbalances and strong (bad) food cravings to combat them.
Based only on what I’ve read on the interwebs, I’m pretty confident that I’m hormone sensitive. Eating conventionally raised meats messes with me. It just does. And once I start feeling off, I make bad food decisions. I was probably still 80%+ Paleo from December to February, but that 20% was filled in with some nasty stuff. No bueno.
I’m on the road to feeling better thanks to a few smart decisions, including seeking professional help via a therapist and babysitter, and laying off the coffee (which I’m pretty sure was making me bitchy)! After putting my gym clothes on for the first time in a month and seeing my less-svelte self, I had a realization: my food has got to get back to the good stuff. Not just eating “paleo,” but high quality food. My health is worth it*.
The other day I downloaded the 21 Day Sugar Detox from Balanced Bites. Kinda like these Paleo Gods, I like the idea of following a program. Diane’s Sugar detox is well laid out and has really simple recipes. I’m gearing up for it now, but I’m going to “officially” get started with a new group at the beginning of April so I can experience the whole group effort and motivation thing. I’m excited!
So yes, this post was written with one foot in my mouth. I realized I said “Paleo on a budget is possible” and I’m kinda back tracking. For anyone wondering, we did manage
to save a fair amount of money when I was being super strict about our food budget. I don’t plan to go crazy and have no food budget, but when I’ve done some additional math to determine a smart budget that allows us higher quality food, I will post on that. In the meantime, our first order from US Wellness Meats arrived yesterday, and I’m jazzed to make lunch soon!
Thanks for being patient these last couple of months… Mojo coming back slowly but surely!